I was really hoping 2013 would be a kinder, gentler year to me. Last year really ran me through the wringer in so many ways, and I was really looking forward to a little respite.
But if it were easy, there would be nothing to TAKE ON, XL!
After I spend a little bit of time wallowing in self-pity and grieving whatever the hell I'm grieving, I will get started Taking It On...because yes, that is what I do. But sometimes I'm just really super tired of taking it on.
Yesterday, I received the write-up on my x-ray...
Moderate to severe osteoarthritis of the right hip.
On the one hand, YAY! A diagnosis! On the other hand, holy s*it...conventional medicine says there's nothing you can do to heal it. You can 'manage' it...manage the pain...mask the symptoms...cut it out and put a piece of metal and plastic in there that will need to be replaced again in 10 years and isn't made to fit a small woman's physique and doesn't treat whatever the heck led to this whole crappy situation in the first place. You can shoot cortisone in there that will further erode any cartilage that still exists in that thar hip socket.
Ummmm...no thanks. None of those really appeal to me. Conventional medicine in this moment isn't really appealing to me :P
Oh, and honey...running is probably the worst thing you can do. Oh, you say you've been thinking of rowing again? Think again because that deep compression at the catch? Yeah, probably going to really screw you up even more.
You can go for a walk.
You all know how I feel about swimming, right?
Regardless of what you do, sweetheart, you are on a one-way trip to losing the hip.
So I'm sitting here, staring at my little screen and thinking...
What in the heck am I going to do now?
And my answer today is...
I have no idea.
I'm hoping some of you stick around to see how this turns out. But it might really suck. One thing I can say with certainty is this... for awhile at least there won't be much running talk. So if that's why you come here, yeah...probably other more interesting places to hang out ;-)
Of course, I am one to buck trends and piss people off so this journey will probably be entertaining to watch.
Maybe I could get some network to fund a reality show?