15 February 2014

A first time for everything.

My first post here in 2014..

My presence here at Taking It On has been sparse, I know. I was here a lot for a couple of years, and then things slowed waaaayyyyy down. Some very difficult things happened in my personal life...some of which I feel comfortable sharing and others, not yet. I doubt I'll ever return to blogging here every day, but I do have a real fondness for you, my Taking It On readers, and for blabbing sharing about myself and life's trials and tribulations and so am still drawn to indulge in this narcissistic outlet from time to time. Here's the latest...

In my last post, which was posted on the last day of last year (lots of lasts), I shared an image of a very diseased hip joint. It was an x-ray taken a year ago, and it was gnarly...in a not good way. For a reminder about what went down, click here to be transported to February of last year. That day I had gone in for a second opinion and I saw that x-ray for the first time. And it stunned me into reality. At that appointment I made the decision that I will get a full hip replacement.

Two weeks ago I had a new image taken. I was x-rayed this time in preparation for meeting with an orthopedic surgeon. It looked even worse...bigger bone spurs, more of that white stuff indicating increased bone due to stress, and weird cysts in the femoral head. Looking at the picture made me cringe. The surgeon said, "Sooooooo...you've got a really messed up hip!"

And while he didn't sing to me, he did spend an hour talking with me about life and surgery and family and joints and "big picture" and zombie apocalypses. He's my surgeon-of-choice and I am excited to get this done.

After a year of basically doing NOTHING in terms of fitness, I'm now cross-training like it's my job. The plan is to be in the best shape time (and pain levels) will allow going into surgery. I need to get stronger and more fit...and I need to lose about 15 lbs. That last part is so humbling. I can't say I've ever been in that place before. But I'm ready to... what am I ready to do????

That's right... TAKE IT ON.

'Cuz that's what I do.

Will I ever run again? That remains to be seen. It is on the "NOT recommended" list for artificial hip recipients, but people do it anyway. My surgeon said, "I can sell you the car, but what you do with it once you drive it off the lot is up to you." 

But enough of that hard stuff...

Everything else in life is going nicely...my kids are happy, my husband is happy, I'm happy. We just moved to a house that suits us really well, and the kids are all still going to their same schools. Big G is loving his high school (and how many people can say that they LOVED high school?). And, if you clicked the right link above, you now know my dirty little, two-timing secret. Please understand that I needed an outlet and I know that some of you have a hard time with "language." We are all multi-faceted...now you have a glimpse of more of my facets :)

Me with wet hair and a beautiful 4-year old.

So, HI, EVERYONE!!!! Have you missed me as much as I've missed you??? And running....I really miss running...

20 comments:

  1. This is why I love reading blogs, and contributing in my own small way. I love the honesty, the recognition that shit happens and we cope. The blogs that are all la-la-la about flowers and puppies and babies and clothes are all very well, but I'm interested in the real lives of real people as they cope. Yes, it means maybe they can't blog as often as they'd like, but life isn't about writing a blog. You go! Take it on!

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    1. Thanks so much, Keith! I love having faithful participants such as you :)

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  2. glad you have a plan of action..sucks that you have to wait so long.

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    1. I figure I've been waiting since March of 2000, what's another few months? LOL

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  3. Nice to hear from you! So sorry you've been through such a tough run--hoping that this solution will change your life for the better!

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  4. hee hee hee...I think I hit the right link, but a couple of things made me think...noooooo that isn't her (age is just a number though). You have been cheating for a loooong time, but am glad to see you here, and your secret hangout! That pic is fantastic...you look so happy!

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    1. You're probably referring to the #bikiniselfies, right? Yep, that's me last summer. And yep, I really am 50. And yep, it's all about the angles ;-)

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  5. Ha! I never knew that was you (too). :)

    I love that wet hair picture. And I love that you're back, even if you're just back every once in a while. Life isn't always all rainbows and such, I've had a few non-rainbow moments lately, and I like the honesty of putting it out there (and the knowing that you don't need to put it ALL out there for people to still care).

    Good luck with the hip replacement. And the 15 lbs. Been there more than once, myself. Still there, but it's slowly dropping away.

    Also, you should check out Robyn Benincasa. She was a world-class adventure racer who had to have TWO hips replaced and while AR is now on the "unadvised" list, she's continued in all kinds of new athletic and life pursuits.

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    1. I will check her out for sure...thanks so much for directing me to her :) And HOW COULD YOU NOT KNOW????? LOL. Actually I think only 5 people knew for a really long time...like, the first 11 months. Not sure what I'll do now. Thanks so much for all your kindness and for hanging with my mess...you are one of the awesome-and-not-forgotten JBHers :)

      Here's to our non-rainbow moments making us appreciate the rainbow moments all the more...and helping build all this amazing character that is US :)

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  6. you lose 15lbs!?! I can't imagine that you have that to lose??? Glad you are having this surgery-and I know you will run again. Why would you even do it, right? :):) and duh, of course I've missed you.

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  7. Hey you! Wow. Big stuff. I am also faced with giving up the running I love... my osteoporosis is leading to stress fracture after stress fracture. It freaking sucks. I feel your pain, but it's nice to see you back here. I miss you!

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  8. Hoping for a successful surgery and quick recovery:) Glad you are all doing well!

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  9. Any form or exercise is great exercise. You can always run/walk as an option.

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  10. LOVE this picture of you....seriously, you look radiant!!!!

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